Thursday night The Neighbor and I had softball games at the same time. For the first time in weeks I forgot he was even at the park with me. His team’s red shirts little laser dots on the neighboring field, my green team’s bright, grass green jerseys like blades of grass on ours. It was a splintered Christmas theme.
After we slaughtered our opponent, we regrouped on the bleachers and drank our leftover beers. Peyton and my friend’s kid ran amok and swung like monkeys off of anything they could get their hands on. We passed cigarettes around when the children weren’t looking and called each other names. I idly noticed that TN’s team was also hanging out on their bleachers. I couldn’t even muster the energy to shrug.
Tuesday night with TN was liking going to a restaurant. “Yes, I’d like the salad to start, the fish of the day, and a good, hard fuck for dessert. Thanks.” My heart didn’t flutter once Wednesday and I was shocked to realize at the end of the day that neither of us had contacted the other. In fact, I’d forgotten to completely. A clear departure from the old Hy.
Old Hy would have concocted some reason to text, would have felt sad that he hadn’t texted her. She would have danced with despondency, but not this new Hy. New Hy has honey badger style: she don’t give a shit.
So as I stood enjoying myself with my teammates, friends, and child, full and tough as nails I watched TN run from his team to me.
“Hey, Hy!” he said smiling. My friends who’ve known him this summer said, “Hey, TN!” I waved and asked him how his team had done.
“We killed them!”
“Good for you! We did, too!” We high-fived each other as his team trickled past like slow moving blood cells down the sidewalk to their cars.
“So,” he said, “Do you want to come to Bob’s for a drink with my team?” He looked at me expectantly. I struggled to keep my jaw from dropping. Oh, how I’d hoped for a moment like this all summer long and now here he was offering himself to me when I had all but forgotten about him.
I looked to my girlfriend with whom I carpool. “I’m down if you are,” she said.
“Ok,” I turned back to TN. “Looks like I’m in.”
“Great!” He ran off to grab his backpack and bat and quickly returned and stayed with us until we bled out into the parking lot. Tina caught him stroking his bat suggestively to while saying, “Hy, don’t you just love my bat? Isn’t it just the perfect size and weight for you??” Her eye roll could have launched a trebuchet.
At the pub the kids ran to the playground with peals of laughter, a fire roared in the stone pit and people hunched over their beers. I ordered a beer and sat next to him with the rest of his team. 4 am girl wasn’t there. She’d dropped out due to an injury. TN lit up and would occasionally put his hand on my lower back. He introduced me to everyone and I teased them that we’d kick their asses next week in our match-up. Between buffalo wings, my cheap beer, TN’s attention, my friends, and looking after Peyton I felt like a one-woman band. Boom-clang-ping-boom! and on and on.
TN’s team left and he remained behind with me and my teammate, Ashley. We played cornhole and laughed until he decided he’d turned into a pumpkin. Ashley and I didn’t even bother discussing him once he’d left. She’s been on this ride as long as I have. What’s the fucking point? You might as well discuss the stripes on a zebra. Goddamned pointless.
Thirty minutes after TN left, I followed. I carried Peyton up to bed and did the sweetest routine known to man. TN had forgotten his to-go salad so I texted him, “I have something you might want.” During my readings to Peyton I heard the telltale ping-ping from the kitchen. When the baby was asleep I padded out and checked my phone.
“Yay. Where? Naked in bed,” was his message.
I texted back, “Come and find out.”
I peeled off my clothes, grabbed the to-go box and put it under the covers with me. As soon as I’d pulled the sheets up to my chin I heard a knock on my bedroom door. TN pushed it open and came in, my candle sputtered spastically at us.
“What do you have?” he asked with raised eyebrows.
“Oh… you know,” I answered suggestively.
He walked closer and when he reached for me I threw back the covers and handed him his salad.
“Here you go.”
He stood there dazed. “My salad?? That’s what you were talking about?”
“Yep! What’d you think?? Aren’t I funny!”
“Yes. Hysterical. Can I get in bed with you? I’m cold.”
He climbed in next to me and we laughed at my awesomeness. I rolled on my side and he stroked my arm then reached down and began to rub me. He hit my nub with startling precision. Heat flooded to my face and I let out my breath. “Wow… you’re actually really good at that.”
“Really??” I could hear the smile in his voice.
I looked at him and nodded. He continued to rub and I continued to wade in the surf. “I have to check on Peyton in a minute or two. I promised I’d go back in.”
“Just as well, I should go.”
New Hy volleyed, “Ok, sounds good.” He continued to slide over my silky panties and my wet cunt, neither of us totally willing to break the spell. I sat up and pulled the covers down off of his waist. His erection strained beneath his slippery shorts. I pulled the waistband down and took the glistening aperture of his cock in my mouth, salty precum spread across my palette. I pulled his shorts down further and gripped his cock. The tape on my left ring finger gently abrading his shaft. He moaned and I forced my face down to his pelvis. He moaned louder.
“Goddamn, that feels good.”
“Mmm mmm,” I mumbled back. Then, “Ok, I have to go check on my baby.”
“Ok, I better go anyway.”
“Alright,” I said as I pulled my tank top back on. He followed me out into the hallway and grabbed my breasts. I leaned in for a kiss and his tongue danced with mine. “See you later, Neighbor.”
He let himself out and I returned to Peyton who was sleeping peacefully. I returned to my bed and to Frasier, smiling.
I parried with TN from a position of balanced power, confidence and disinterest. I am on the offensive no longer a whimpering heap of shit.
Tonight is my friend’s party; he stopped by earlier to see when we were leaving. I answered the door pantsless wrapped in an afghan. I blushed from head to toe, out of breath with guilt. Immediately, he knew what I’d been up to. My rush to the door was to prevent him walking in on me. I saw the interest dancing in his eyes and my redness spread. He grabbed my breasts and snuck the blanket out of my hands. I stood before him pulling my see-through t-shirt down. It was all pointless, my blushing, but blush I did nonetheless, ever the shy seductress.
Tonight is yet another day in the ongoing struggle for my independence from him and his beautiful, fat, pink cock. I am stuck in the web of his friendship obviously, bu let me not continue to twist myself in the web of his desires. I want so much more than just sexual release with him. I used to want it all, today I feel like it’s a disservice to only want his sex. It’s not fair to either us.
And so I remain light on my toes, my love for him fading like the best friend you made at summer camp. She never fits in with your real life back home, it’s like sitting too close to the ballet. Or maybe in this case, like sitting too close to the sword fight.
En guarde, friends. En guarde!